With my honey on deployment, we have been able to stash a good chunk of change away into savings. But I've been doing it so intensely that I have actually had a moment or two where I find myself short before payday because I've hidden so much money away in an account that isn't very easy to get money out (by design of course).

It's not bad to save and its not bad to save for a rainy day, but I'm starting to wonder if I'm saving out of fear. Its like I'm scared of ever feeling out of control and having a bunch of money saved up lets me feel like I have some sense of control no matter what happens. But its getting to the point where it's almost a detriment because no matter how much I get saved, I could be doing more and I haven't really done enough. This isn't Dave Ramsey gazelle intensity, this is just nuts.

There - I said it. Now I can figure out how to balance things out for myself. Maybe I need a therapist more than a financial blog